My relationship to my body has been a rocky one most of my life. From emaciated ballerina in my teens to the “fat 20’s,” as I used to refer to myself, to the circus-like game of inflate, deflate inflate, deflate of my 30’s as my body created two entire human beings changing shape so drastically that the skin on my stomach has since looked like a weathered old balloon.
My body and I have been through a lot. There were times when I loathed my body. Times when I abused it. When I starved it. Cut it. Exhausted it. Ridiculed it. The most dire times, I just downright tried to off it.
Oh, I was a brutal bitch. I believed my body was my biggest liability in life. It wasn’t beautiful enough. It wasn’t flexible enough, thin enough, curvy enough, tan enough, tall enough, soft enough, strong enough, young enough, old enough, talented enough.
Every frustration in my life I blamed on my body. If it weren’t for whatever new body issue I dreamt up that day, I’d be more successful, more loved, more rich and on and on.
It took me twenty five painful years of all the aforementioned abuses before I became conscious of a deep seated truth. It wasn’t my body that was my greatest downfall. It wasn’t that I was a woman that sucked. I wasn’t the problem at all.
My revelation came from doing a film where I played a stripper in a gentlemen’s club, Dancing at the Blue Iguana. It wasn’t until I danced in my scenes of a particular nature, curving and swerving and touching and caressing my body, truly allowing my body to move to her fullest capacity in all directions, that I realized that my body was perfect.
It was not me, but the world in which I was living and still live, this masculine world with its masculine rules and sensibilities, was the problem. The revelation: I was a feminine creature trying to thrive in a world built for all things masculine.
A masculine world that valued my body as just a thing to find pleasure from. A masculine world that demanded crisp control over how I could safely live in my body. A masculine world that shut down the full expression of my body. Dictated where and when I could express my full body movements.
Shamed me from the natural shapes and forms and sensuality that my body released and yearned for. A feminine creature in a masculine world is living an almost schizophrenic existence. How far we as a global feminine community have come from a safe sisterhood where full expression of our bodies is natural.
When I first found my way back into my body through what would soon become the S Factor feminine movement, I discovered I had innate feminine attributes that had, for my entire life to this point, been dismissed by the masculine world.
These attributes I refer to as the 5 feminine geniuses:
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Curve of Movement
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Sensuality
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Emote-ability
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Connection
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Intuition
By exploring and reclaiming these geniuses, my body came alive in a way that I had never experienced before. I vividly remember the exact moment when my body turned back on.
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While learning erotic movement for the film, I was doing hip circles and the stripper who was teaching me, gloriously provocative Devin, kept screaming at me above the music, “Push your hip out further! Further! Further! FURTHER!!!!!”
I kept pushing my hip to the right, nearly screaming back at her, “it’s as far as I can get it!” when all of a sudden my hip unlocked and pushed out further than it ever had before. It felt like a lightning bolt of electric energy unlocked and started flowing through my body as if for the first time.
It was breathtaking, tingling my toes and lighting up my spine like a Christmas tree. I felt extraordinarily alive throughout every inch of my body. It was a moment when everything changed.
The beauty of embodiment I discovered was that Life begins and ends in your body. When your body is shut down, shamed, frozen, what have you, your Life will be shut down to the same degree.
If you can succeed at freeing your body from lock down and move her past the furthest stretch, the deepest curve, the fullest arch, or the most decadent sensuality your life will imitate your body, your Life will expand.
Your career will elevate, your relationships will thrive, your experiences will flourish, and your finances will prosper. I know it sounds implausible. How can simply changing the way you move transform your life so radically?
As I or any of the thousands of women who have applied S Factor into daily life can attest, changing such a fundamental part of yourself, finally uncovering who you and your body really are, can and does snowball into all this success.
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What I can share is that I have experienced it happen in my own life and other women’s lives. Open and free your body to live and express in her natural state and you will open and free your life to expand in all directions.
An Epic body is a body living to the fullest expression possible. Living to its fullest potential. An Epic body is completely unlocked and moves effortlessly, gracefully.
She is able to open completely and close just as much. She is a body that can stretch to the furthest degree possible in all directions. A free Epic body: Free of shame, free of self judgment. Free of fear. Free of self criticism and immune to anyone else’s.
An Epic Body is a body that sits with itself in titillation. Tickled to be present in unapologetic pleasure. She is a body that will let you live your life without regret, with no stone left unturned, no expression unexpressed, no feeling unfelt, no aroma unnoticed, no connection unmade.
She is fully fascinated with Life pulsing through her. It all starts with awareness, from awareness comes movement. For an Epic body to truly thrive a feminine movement practice is a must. There are many to choose fromㅡI use the practice I founded, S Factor.
Here’s a list of other feminine movement practices:
Wherever you are in the world you can find access to one of these practices. Start today!
If you’re at the beginning of your epic body journey, engage in your feminine movement practice at least three times a week for 10 minutes minimum. If you’re comfortable doing more, do more! Unlearn the masculine way of being in the feminine body. It can be tough. You must break down body patterns and shapes that have defined you your entire life.
Changing patterns through movement and conscious awareness takes time. Be prepared. You have to work through the constricted muscle and fascia that are used to a certain way of movement. You have to end habits that have a lifetime of inertia behind them.
For example, when old emotions come up, and they definitely will even if you don’t know where they’re from, allow them to move through your body. Free them. I call this process “coming clear” in the body. You want your body to be what she was meant to be, a flowing creature that energy moves through to bring you into the most fully realized life.
An Epic Body is the foundation for living an Epic Life. Epic Love is pulled to you by an Epic Body and an extraordinary Epic Life . And mark my words they each must be found in that order.
How enlivened are you in your body today?
EPIC BODY + EPIC LIFE = EPIC LOVE
